"Let's have a merry journey, and shout about how light is good and dark is not. What we should do is not future ourselves so much. We should now ourselves. "NOW thyself" is more important than "Know thyself." Reason is what tells us to ignore the present and live in the future. So all we do is make plans. We think that somewhere there are going to be green pastures. It's crazy. Heaven is nothing but a grand, monumental instance of future. Listen, now is good. Now is wonderful." ~ Mel Brooks
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Something is new......
.....and I'm not sure what. Either is the Spring in the air or just me in transition......or both. I feel accomplished. I feel happy. I feel at peace. Those 3 words rarely ever leave my lips, let alone at the same time! Let me make sure to count my blessings!!!
These past few days I have been eager to live in Charlotte's world. Charlotte is my 2year old daughter. I have had a 2 year old before......2 in fact, they are currently 10 and 8......so this time of life is nothing new to me. Or is it? Other than the fact that I am walking on a totally different path, with a new partner (new as in 6 years new) and am loved, respected, loved, cared for, loved, and well, you get the picture......I am lucky enough to be able to really enjoy it. Don't get me wrong, some days are, indeed, tough. In fact, some days when my husband returns home from work I'm ready to run out the door for a few hours solice.....but alas......these are the joys and the pains of Motherhood. All of my kids bring me joy. All different from the other. Lately, Charlotte has really inspired me to be ALIVE! Creative alive. Awake alive. Still alive! Such wonderful joys. I've dedicated this week to, everyday, doing something simple that will bring HER joy. Painting, playing in the dirt, making play dough. She so looks forward to our new "projects" and can't wait until the next one. Although, as a Mother, I do "projects" with my kids anyway. On occasion, when there is down time......I've never really been able to regimented. This is my new task. To regiment these little glimmers of sunshine into our everyday lives. It will only enrich us all.
Joy. Happiness. Peace. What can be better?!